why I left you

damn what is this?
I have no idea darling
And yet you chose to stay.

Falling and you were drowning
In all your expectations
but it was never easy.

It was never easy to look
Into your eyes,
To be honest with you.

I’ve never felt what I wanted
It was just pain
and sadness.

You never understood me
and of course it’s not weird
because you have no idea

You have no idea what it‘s like
To grow up in hate
to wish at the age of 4 to be dead

As a kid I felt like it was unfair
that I‘m alive
I‘m sure you‘ve never went through this

through this kind of experience
But I‘m happy for you
and I‘m happy, without you.