Why I just can't be happy

I dropped everything I ever liked
and focused on new experiences
but my inner demon is still there
and he is stronger than ever.

I'm so weak
Everyone is doing fine
except me
this is all I see.

People are mean
It's exhausting to feel like this
and no one reach out for help
but I know I have to go through this alone again

Even tho I am not alone.
This is so hard
and I don't even know why
Why I can't just be happy